I have made a decision. I'm going mechancial. You might ask, gee, Michele, why the mechanical valve? Two words, Lindsay Wagner. I can finally acheive my childhood dream of being cool like the Bionic Woman. Kids, dreams really do come true!
As far as the issue that some of y'all know I have been struggling with... before I was given this choice, I had to come to terms with a lot of stuff. I don't know if I can deal with dealing with all of that all over again. I feel that I was already on a certain path, a path that I am okay with. And now I've come to this fork in the road, where I've been given a choice. Had this choice been given to me back in May of 2002, I would have gone Bovine. Moo. But, I'm a different person now. Becoming a parent is much more important to me than I how I get there. Though I do admit to enjoying the possibility I was presented with. I once again have to say goodbye to that possiblility.
I want to avoid a second heart surgery. They say the risks are greater the second time around. And I'm afraid that I would come out of surgery with the bovine valve and know how hard heart surgery/recovery is and live in fear of having to go through it again. Mollie, I too am a wuss.
So, there it is. I still have to talk to my surgeon about all of this, but I don't plan on changing my mind.
More than you know.... I applaud your strength. Keep your head up and fists clenched dear Shelba.
Shanti,
KJB
Posted by: KJB | January 07, 2004 at 04:47 PM
You had a very tough decision to make, and you made the one that was right for you. You are a strong lady, and I wish you the very best! :-)
Posted by: Milenka | January 07, 2004 at 06:12 PM
I'm proud of you for knowing yourself. Congratulations! So when do you get to become superhuman?
More superhuman than you are already, I mean.
Posted by: Julie | January 07, 2004 at 07:14 PM
Well, there is an induction ceremony scheduled for a week after the surgery. Both The Bionic Woman and Six Million Dollar man are set to present. I'm still waiting to hear from Wonder Woman. I'll keep you posted, and you'll get your invitation soon. It will be black tie and women are requested to wear the pretty color of blood, red. You'll just need to let me know if you want steak or chicken for your entree.
Posted by: Michele | January 07, 2004 at 08:08 PM
Oh, and if I change my mind about the valve type then there is no superhero ceremony. Instead I'll be partying with the cows.
Posted by: Michele | January 07, 2004 at 08:25 PM
if you partied with the cows, would steak be off the menu? : )
congrats on yet another tough decision. i can't even imagine...
Posted by: Kathleen | January 07, 2004 at 09:18 PM
Well, if I party with the cows, it will be a chicken menu. I don't feel worthy of your congratulations because I've been known to waffle on decisions. I hate all of this shit. Hate it. I've been given some other things to consider.
Posted by: Michele | January 07, 2004 at 10:51 PM
You are just so damn cool.
Can I come to the ceremony?
Posted by: getupgrrl | January 08, 2004 at 11:53 AM
Getupgrrl, whether I party with the bovines or the Superfriends, you are on the invitation list. Either way, I'm want a karaoke machine and a roller rink. Maybe the 6 million dollar man will couple skate with me.
Posted by: Michele | January 08, 2004 at 01:55 PM