I haven't posted in a couple of days, mainly because I don't have much to blog about other than heart valves. I walk around muttering about cow valves and asking myself, "What should I do?"
You're probably saying, "Holy Hogwarts, Michele, choose a valve and be done with it. Move on. We're ready to read about the wires that will hold your rib cage together and the scar....show us the scar!" Okay, okay, I promise, I will take pictures of my scar. And damn it to hell, I really want to make my freakin' mind up, but I just don't know what to do. I'm still counting on my surgeon offering up something that will make me see the light.
I keep thinking if I just get one more opinion, read one more study, talk to one more person who has gone through the surgery that it will help me make up my mind. I've been on a quest for that one right, magical piece of information. I want to know what the right answer is. But I don't think there is one. In the end, it will have to be a leap of faith. I will go with the choice that I feel best about, close my eyes, and hurl myself into the consequences.
Anyone have the name of a reliable pyschic? :)
Hooray, you're back! I've been jonesing for a post on this site. Of course we want to hear about your valves, baby! We're all in the same boat, in some way or another, making choices every day that fall squarely into the "gray" area. Well, except Dubbuya. He sees the whole world as black or white. God bless him. Must make it so easy.
You're correct when you say there is no right choice. But in one way, there is a right choice. And that's the right choice for YOU. And only you can know what it is! (I'm so brilliant. At least you're not paying me.) But really, I think it's great that you're getting more opinions, reading up on more studies or whatever, and informing yourself. This isn't picking out a paint chip, Michele! This is a very important decision.
My only overriding feeling about it is that I want you to come out as healthy as possible after the surgery. But I said that before.
My husband is actually an excellent psychic, but he won't do it on command. Bastard.
Posted by: Mollie | January 21, 2004 at 03:12 PM
LOL, thanks, Mollie. Damn, I wish you're husband could give me some answers.
You're right, there is a right answer, what is right for me. I agree, you're brilliant, so can't you tell me what to do? Please.
I have a notebook full of questions for my surgeon to answer, so I hope there is something he can say to help me. I can't wait until all of this is over with.
Thank you for being so supportive, you're a blessing!
Posted by: Michele | January 21, 2004 at 05:51 PM
"In the end, it will have to be a leap of faith."
You said it. I hope and pray things turn out well for you.
Posted by: Armand | January 21, 2004 at 07:57 PM
"In the end, it will have to be a leap of faith. I will go with the choice that I feel best about, "
Seems like the perfect choice to me.
Posted by: Kathleen | January 21, 2004 at 08:06 PM
Have you consulted the magic 8 ball? Mine hasn't let me down yet. ;)
Posted by: maria | January 23, 2004 at 09:46 AM
Maybe I should take a trip to Toys R' Us and ask the Magic 8 Ball some questions. I might just do that.
Posted by: Michele | January 23, 2004 at 03:39 PM