Less than two weeks to go until the big "O." Less than two weeks! I thought I would be nervous at this point, but I'm not. However, my surgeon's nurse, B, assures me that this will change, that I will be scared shitless. Which will be a good thing, because severe constipation is guaranteed after heart surgery. No, I'm not scared now, but I know that Nurse B is right, any day now I'll be emailing Mollie to ask if there is room for me in the moving van. Just one box, that is all I need, Mollie, I swear. Please!
I firmly believe that everything will work out for me. I'm going to come out better than when I went in. Yeah, I will require a bit more maintanance than your average girl, but that is just the way it goes. Besides, I will be heavily medicated afterwards. I'll be floating down the mellow river of intoxication. Or at least that is what I'm banking on.
By the way, I have made a valve choice. *Insert Drumroll* And the winner is......the mechanical valve! Applause, cheers, more applause. Here is where the bionic valve takes a bow, and confetti falls from the sky.
This has been without a freakin' doubt the most difficult decision of my life. It was tough. Soooo tough. I worried that March 3 would arrive and I still would not know what to do, that it would come down to a coin toss. But, I found enough pieces of the puzzle to help make my mind up. I actually made my decision a couple of weeks ago, but I chose not to blog about it then because the last time I made up mind, I changed my mind the very next day.
I'll save the story for another day about how I came to decide on the mechanical valve. There is a surprise twist involved.
I'll tell you about it later.
Hey girley, I'm so proud of you! I know this hasnt been easy for you and your strength is to be applauded. We'll be here, with you, the whole way sister.
Hearts,
KJB
Posted by: KJB | February 23, 2004 at 12:54 AM
Aw, Shelba, this is such a big deal. I am proud and thrilled that you're sharing it with us. I hope you'll continue to do so, shitlessness and all. I do want to hear about how you decided to go bionic.
Posted by: Julie | February 23, 2004 at 10:26 AM
We'll all be waiting with bated breath! We still need to meet in person, chica! I need to give you a hug before the big day.
Posted by: Julia | February 23, 2004 at 03:45 PM
congrats on the decision, and i'll be wearing my power pin that day too!
Posted by: Kathleen | February 23, 2004 at 05:19 PM
YAY HOORAY!!! Give me a minute and I'll come up with a great cheer for you, my love.
Oh, I just jumped out of my uncomfortable little seat here when I read that you'd made your decision. Sweetheart, I know you WILL come through this better than ever!
There's always room for you in my van, baby. Always. But better that you be riding high with a window seat, and not packed into a box. Time to face the music, with baton raised and audience hushed. And man, will we all cheer when you take your bow.
Love you.
Posted by: Mollie | February 23, 2004 at 05:26 PM
Go Mrs. Miller get your mechanical valve on.
I know all will be wodnerful with your new heart pieces and it will be a good time for all.
Posted by: Andreah | February 23, 2004 at 07:31 PM
Thank you, ladies!!! Thank you for all of the support you've thrown my way. It has meant a lot. I can't tell you how relieved I am to have this decision off of my back.
Mollie, save a seat for me, I might need it!!
Posted by: Michele | February 24, 2004 at 03:23 PM